In Lithuania at 6 years old I was friends with the phantom, the phantom of a girl that looks like me (if I was a girl)..... We played with the simple toys like characters figures and animals... But then I said good bye to her because at that time and country I wasn't supposed to play with the girls, especially if that girl was a part of me...After I let her go I started walking around the buildings and sites alone searching for her signs... The time passed and when I became 9 years old I started playing with other boys but roughly 2 times per month, sometimes they were even forgetting me, because I was still in an ultimate sorrow for my Phantom girl up until I was 14 yo...

Now, I'm that girl. And I couldn't explain to other girls that i'm lesbian.
Also I have a hard time explaining that I'm not gay.
I'm quite inconsistent in CSGO I reached rank supreme in 3 years, but I'm good at predictions most of the time.

How should I live my life

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